Do you ever wonder...

...what might have been?

Seriously. Think about it.

Think about saying that is to every action there is a reaction. That is so true...and it makes a lot of sense.

I often find myself wondering a lot. Wondering about how if I didn't do one thing, then another thing probably would have never happened.

For example...say that I never left home to go to school out of state. I wonder what I would be doing right now. I wonder how my parents would treat me if I stayed at home and went to school. I wonder if it would have any effect on my relationship with them.

Then I look at it this way...if I had never gone to school out of state, I would have never met my husband, Kenneth. And I probably wouldn't be the person who I am today.

Which is something that I could never replace...so, it's a good thing that I went out of state to go to school.

Then I think about what if I majored in something else in college. I probably would not have wasted all of my parents money, going to school for something that I'm not even doing right now. Which is okay...they understand, and I always have my career in hair as something to fall back on.

I think about what my body would be like if I were still a dancer...

Ugh, I don't know if my body could handle that anymore...

I think about how I would feel if I hadn't eaten those 7 dounut holes that I've had today. (4 with my breakfast and coffee this morning and 3 during my lunch break).

And the chocolate milkshake I had last night at McDonald's.

And the...oh, nevermind.


No matter what we do, we are always going to wonder. We're always going to think.

And you know what I think?

I think I think too much.